Chubby and Proud!

Have you ever had one of those neighbors who you’ve never met, but they do something annoying or seem to just want to bug you? Well we met ours tonight, at 10:30 PM when we let our dogs out one last time for a bathroom break and our German Shepherd, Shea, started barking because someone was on the other side of the fence. Sheamus is EXTREMELY territorial and because he has very limited eyesight he gets worked up over the slightest of noises, he’s a great guard dog, but I agree with the neighbor that he is also very annoying.

Well all our neighbor knows about us, is that we have an annoying dog who barks every time we let him out and all we know about the guy on the other side of our back fence is that he antagonizes the dog and makes the situation worse. Long story short, my mother went out in her PJ’s because she had, had enough of this punk messing with our dog by barking at him or banging pieces of wood together and making the whole scenario worse, and we got the most interesting story about a divorce caused by the noise of our pets, and how the rest of his life somehow played into this vexing setting. After all that I’m having a hard time sleeping because all the excitement woke me up completely. So here is what all is going on;

I keep daydreaming of the time when my Southern Guy and I get to travel together with all my belongings and my silly cat down South, being able to be a “normal” couple in the sense that we are close in proximity and able to date and do daily things together. It is driving me crazy how I have to wait, but hopefully the time is getting closer. Fingers crossed!

These last two weeks I kept to my goal of 3-4 times running or a good cardio workout a week, constantly making a mile in 10 minutes. I’m really proud of that, also in the last 2-3 weeks I’ve lost 4 lbs total! I’ve been eating relatively clean, with only a few slip ups here and there, nothing big, but just little binges of a soda (only once a week) and maybe some chips or something that’s processed. Overall I would say that the last two weeks have been great! Tough, but great! My goals now are to keep that up for the next 3 months, to see how far I can get and see what others think or if they even notice or I notice a significant change. I also want to add more muscle work into my routine, tone up my arms and torso, so that while I’m thinning out (hopefully) there is something behind it all.

Speaking of a something behind all of “it”, I just have to elaborate on somethings I’ve said before;

I’ve posted a little bit of my background, my family and growing up with two thin sisters, and being the chubby one in the family. I’ve done some soul searching as well as talking with my parents, and something that was said really hit me, “The grass is always greener on the other side.” Even when I was thinner in high school I wasn’t happy with where I was, I thought I was still chubby, and I was. I wasn’t “thin” like I said before, but you could see in my face and in my body that I was healthy, that even though I had a little pudge in my gut I was healthier than I was now. My face was thinner, my weight was lower, and I felt relatively good about myself, even thought at the time I thought that I should be thin like my sisters. My mom told me that my size “suits” me, that being bigger isn’t something to be upset about. Yes I need to work at being better and working towards being healthier for whatever my purposes, but I also need to recognize the wonderful body I have. The beauty that is Megan, and look at what has been given me without searching out the negative. I need to be aware of my short comings, but I don’t need to constantly focus on them, I need to fix them and move on. So like Raven from “X-Men First Class”, but with a slight alteration, I am Chubby and Proud!

So the next week is all about cardio for at least 30 minutes for 3-4 days, and muscle workouts at least 3 days this week.

Shout out: in two months my best friend Shannon will be in town and I can’t wait! Hopefully with her in town I will have some more stories to tell and a few videos to post!

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Spring in the Pacific Northwest

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Recollections

Today in my small town we had a festival and parade called the “Pear Blossom”, we celebrate spring and the arrival of the pear blossoms that surround us in our tiny valley. For an outsider it’s really not a big deal, but it’s because of these blossoms that our town has any sort of economy. Pears are what created my hometown, in fact my high school mascot was the Riviera Pear until like the 1980’s when they realized how embarrassing it is to cheer for a dancing pear and changed it to a only slightly more ferocious pirate.

I marched in the Pear Blossom Parade for about 8 years, in middle school and high school, and have attended it many, many times. Each time since graduating I look at those kids in the uniforms that I used to wear year after year and it makes me think back to what I thought about myself then and where I thought I would end up at 22. I can truthfully say I’m not where I thought I would be, not that I’m disappointed in myself, just that what I had thought when I was their age was completely different from what reality is. I guess it just really caught up with me that I’m not who or where I ever thought I would be and most of that is fine, but there are some things that I have had the hardest time letting go. Things that as a child I thought I would never have given up, that I would never have stopped fighting for, yet in my adult life they have been placed on the back burner or even further back where they never should have been placed.

Many of those things are goals and dreams that I had just given up on because they seemed to have eluded me and that the opportunity would never present it’s self. Some I found apparently weren’t as important to me any more because of whatever reason, and now as an adult I’m sad to have seen those things lose priority in my mind. I guess that’s just life.

Thinking back, remembering things that I shouldn’t have let go, it made me realize that we need to write down everything that we want, dream, and set goals for. We should never let these things become lost in the moment or to time in general, looking back and thinking on the things we allowed ourselves to miss or give up on, those regrets, they don’t help push us forward. Then again there are things that because we missed out on them we actually were able to set ourselves and become more than we were. For me that was dating in high school. I never dated, and because of it I graduated in the top 20 of my high school glass with honor’s classes and 5 credits more than I needed to graduate. Then I found an amazing young man who has put up with me for 3 years and continues to, all this because I didn’t get distracted.

I had a good long drive to think and try to remember all the things that I had planned for my life way back then in middle school, but as hard as I tried, there were very few memories of what I had thought of what my future could be. I wish I had been better at keeping track, keeping a record or a list even that changed when ever it would change, adding to it when I came across something new that I wanted from life and for myself. So if I ever seem lengthy in what I write or nonsensical, please forgive me. I just don’t want to miss out on something that may be important to me now and never remember it later. I want to be able to recollect the dreams and goals I set so that I can actually achieve them.

Forward Motion

Today was another awesome day! I hope everyone out there had a great day as well, it’s early spring, the weather has been nice (at least here in my little valley), and with the extra rain everything is growing and bringing out the bright and beautiful colors of springtime. And where is the best place to see all of this and enjoy it while on a good mile long run? The Farm!https://i2.wp.com/distilleryimage10.s3.amazonaws.com/1332e48a8f5b11e1989612313815112c_7.jpg

My mom’s best friend and her husband, who are pretty much my aunt and uncle, asked me to house/barn-sit for the last for the couple of days and it’s been great! Not only does this force all my excuses out the door about running and exercising, because I’m already at the spot where I go to get my burn on, but it also has been an awesome experience being on my own again since college. I miss living on my own, I know I’ve said it and I’m grateful for my family allowing me to stay with them, but I’m ready to get out there on my own. Anyway, today I did awesome with the eating, I stayed away from bad things like candy (it’s literally ALL OVER my office where I work), and I went for my mile run. Sadly because it’s been raining all day the back field is soaked through and running back there would be disastrous, so I only ran 5/6ths of a mile. On top of this I did walk for 25 seconds, but only once so I feel pretty proud of myself over all.

After that pretty good run, I needed to take care of the animals. So I feel like I made up for my not full mile by mucking out the stalls and cleaning up after some crazy messy creatures.

Goats.

Yes these are our NINE goats. On top of this we share four Dexter cows, two steers, a heifer, and a milk cow soon due to deliver our fifth little cow. So I had a pretty good sized mess to clean tonight, right after doing my “ok” run. I feel like I deserved a good meal of something not so healthy tonight. So here’s what happened:

First you rake up all the gucky, gross hay, and put it into one big pile. We call that sweet and sour hay, because the goats like to eat out of the big pile if we don’t move it fast enough. Then I have to get a pitchfork and chuck it out as far as I can so that it doesn’t add up too much. Squeaker the cat decided to check in on my work to see how I was doing and how fast I was going; he was hungry and was sick of waiting for me. I told him to just catch a mouse and have a snack before dinner, but he just sat on the milking stand and gave me a look like, “I already did that lady, now pick up that poo faster!”

So just as I’m finishing and letting the goats in to eat and be put up for the night I get this view;

Remember how I said it had been raining all day? I even ran in the rain just so I could say I did and know that I’m living up to my set goal, then after getting nearly covered in goat guck, and almost being run over by nine hungry and heavy goats I see this amazing view. And it made everything totally worth it, just for that moment. Oh and no, that is not goat fuzz because someone got too close to my pitchfork, but rather because someone either is shedding or someone else took a nip at them and got a mouth full of goat fuzz.

So after a nice hot shower that took all the guck off me, and a warm meal, I am proud to say and post that it was another good day. I’m not quite to my goal of running a mile square on, but I am definitely getting closer. Maybe next week I will do it, but soon for sure.

Who is the Northern Girl?

So I realized I only gave a brief introduction to who I am and my background. Not that anyone is particularly interested in who I am, maybe not even interested in my advice, but just in case and since I feel like explaining who I am so that I have a more personal connection with what I’m trying to accomplish, here it is.

My name is Megan, I was born and raised in the Northwestern part of the wonderful United States of America, also known as the Pacific Northwest. The Pacific coast has always been one my favorite places to visit, as I live further inland than most think, but close enough that it only takes a few hours to get there. I am recently graduated from college, (one of the BYU’s) where I was a music major, but chose to get an associate’s degree instead of a bachelor’s from the get go so that I could move closer to my Southern guy faster. I love cooking and took a class in college to see if culinary school was my next big move (it wasn’t, it’s just a hobby), and moved back home to a room free of rent, a picky cat (who I left because she couldn’t come to college with me), and the crazy family life that I had sort of forgotten since being single and on my own.

So now I’m a nanny to a wonderful little guy who I’ve been with since he was four months old, and working for a bank where I love my office job of paper work and customer care calls. All this to save to go back to school and be closer to that Southern gentleman who is my Superman, cheesy but true.

Superman and I met over the internet, as penpals. I do not suggest meeting people that way, honestly it was a miracle for us to have met and for it not to have been a traumatic experience for either of us. We are best friends who just happened to fall in love with each other and have worked through things together, separate in space, but together in emotions and spirit. We’ve made our relationship work for three years and hopefully this will be the last year that we spend apart, I plan on getting back to school in the next six months or so, and moving down there. Which plays into my weight loss goals. I want to be my best for my best friend and amazing boyfriend.

Like I’ve said before I’m not a skinny girl, I’ve never been skinny. I am a well built gal, I’m never going to be Victoria Secret model thin, but I know that I can look better than I do now. I honestly love my body, I really do, but there are specific things I can pin point that I absolutely hate about my early 20’s body. I have a body that clings to fat so changing my diet doesn’t cause anything to change, unlike my thin sisters, and the only time in my life that I was “thin” a.k.a “fit” was when I was working my butt off in marching band and doing several other activities. I really have to work at getting my body to where I want it to be, more than my sisters have ever. That’s ok, I realize that long term weight loss goals are going to take long term progress, but that means that they are going to stick better than if I just dieted it off.

So that’s me the Northern Girl, and the Southern Guy Kyle may put something in here eventually, that’s all up to him. I can tell you this though; he is younger than me by two months, he’s going to graduate in 8 months with his bachelor’s, and he is the BEST FRIEND and most amazing boyfriend ever! I don’t know what I would do without him, even though technically every day we are apart we talk for at least an hour to sometime 4 if we can fit it in. There are very few days where we don’t talk and when we don’t we always make up for it by talking as soon as we can and catching up with everything.

┬áThat’s us, the Northern Girl and a little bit of the Southern Guy. The Northern Girl and Her Southern Guy

First Real Change (Real Change, Takes Effect)

Checking in on day one, initiatory day of my changes for real this time around, and I feel like “tooting” my own horn so here it is;

“A-scoot a-toot!”

So today, I had a delicious breakfast of turkey sausage and scrambled eggs mixed together, kinda like what you would do in a breakfast burrito. I love chopped up turkey sausage (or any sausage) put together with scrambled eggs and seasoned with Tony’s Cajun seasoning. (I’m dating a southerner remember? Everything needs to be spicy.) YUM! One of the best breakfasts ever, but I top it off with a banana as I run out the door so I get some fruit in there. Then today I snacked on some cut up apples all day, and it was a LONG day. Any crazy person who could have called in to the bank today did, and just had the strangest requests and questions. Maybe there’s a full moon tonight?

For lunch I did have TopRamen as something quick because I was hungry and just needed something quick when I came back to the farm to let one of the cats out. Here’s my views on TopRamen, if you are constantly eating it of course it’s unhealthy, but unlike going to a fast food joint where pretty much everything is just dipped in fat, it has a good amount of sodium, but I figure its the less of two evils. So then after cooking that up and checking on some other things and packing the Ramen up, I headed back to work where I resisted the evils of the sugars that surround me at every turn in the office.

After clocking out and feeling exhausted, more mentally so than physically which may be harder to fight and push through, I got a phone call from my little sister and trainer Meesh. Meesh needed my assistance tonight in getting some of her homework done in time for the deadline of end of term, as the best big sister I am I took some time to be her photographer instead of heading out for a run right away.

After all that, let me tell y’all, it was so hard to push myself out the door and force my arms and legs into the motions of running, but oh wow was it worth it! I feel amazing, and so proud of myself. After everything today I felt like there was almost no way I could get it done and not only did I get my run done, but I did so much better than I ever had!

I have never in my life ran a full mile straight, and currently that is my end goal. I want to be able to not walk once, to be able to push myself through the entire mile, and then push myself even further. I want to get to that point where I don’t have to think about forcing my limbs into it, and enjoy the run for what it is; time to myself to focus on my body, my feelings, and my thoughts. Tonight I got there for a good 1/3 of the mile, where I wasn’t thinking about pushing or forcing. It just happened. I just was running and it was wonderful!

So here’s what I accomplished; healthy eating, running, and I walked less during my “run” than ever! Only for 1/8th of a mile.

Life as a Pacific Northwestern Nanny

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Real Change

So this week I’m really putting my gears in motion, for the last couple of weeks I’ve made goals and met them half way, but this week I’m going all the way! I’m really going to do it.

That means I’m going to make goals for the entire week and check in daily, I want to make this really stick. As I’ve said before I’m not perfect, I’m not one of those already pretty fit gals. I really need to lose the weight and I just need to push myself to get it all done.

This week I will:

  1. Run 4x’s this week (at least a mile)
  2. Eat a healthy Breakfast and Dinner and snack on fruit and veggies during the day
  3. Work on my situp and pushup levels

So there it is. Nothing really out there, totally doable, but by checking in I hope to make this a habit more than its been before.

In keeping up, here is Monday of this week:

I am currently house-sitting for some really good friends, at the barn where we keep our goat and cows. My mom’s best friend and her husband are away visiting family, and helping to take care of their granddaughter, so I’m here taking care of the animals and enjoying some time away from my crazy, wonderful family. I haven’t lived on my own in a long time and so it has been a little weird not being constantly bugged or asked to take care of something, but I’m enjoying it immensely! (I can’t wait to move out again and be on my own, can you tell?) So tonight because I didn’t prepare my things to get over here right after work and be able to change into my running clothes, I didn’t go running. I still have 6 days left though! So tomorrow morning my plan is to get up and at least go for a walk before work, but after work definitely go for my run on the road right down the highway from the farm. I will have no excuse tomorrow as I got all my errands done, my work out clothes here, and I will have the extra time to get over to the road. Today I did succeed in having a great breakfast of an egg white, smoked salmon, and laughing cow cheese omelet with herbs for seasoning. Then for lunch I made an awesome laughing cow cheese, smoked salmon, and herb spread on top off some flat bread, while dinner was a bowl of lettuce with some vinaigrette and a lean steak.

Also tonight I am going to get some sit ups and pushups in before bedtime. So I’m not too far behind in my goals for this week!

Happy Monday!