These are my last two weeks in Oregon, my home and my life as I’ve known it for the past ten plus years, and I’m am not gonna lie…I’m freaking out. Don’t get me wrong, I am so excited to be moving down South to be closer to my “other family”, the Southern Guy and his relatives who have all, but adopted me right out, but being over 3,000 miles away from everything I know and am comfortable with. Things are SO different down there, it’s a whole other world with different ways of saying things, different ways of doing things, etc. It is a scary thing to leave my home that has been provided to me by my loving and gracious parents, to start paying for my own bills and my own belongings, all while not being able to go running back to mommy and daddy for comfort if it all falls down around me in tiny, ity bity bits.
But I am excited! I am excited, I am excited, excited, excited, excited! Truly I am, it’s just a matter of allowing my excitement to overcome my fears and worries.
Hopefully if I think it, say it, and write it enough times it will finally become the fore front of my thoughts rather than all the what could go wrong, all the “What If”s of life that I have no control over.
I have finally come to the realization that I have become a very type “A” personality, having to have things planned out down to the times and exact places on a specific day. Just ask the Southern Guy who has been so wonderful in putting up with it, to the point of saying it’s a characteristic of mine that he loves, that’s a great boyfriend right there. A guy who takes something that is most likely driving him crazy, yet he smiles and says it’s something to appreciate rather than to dislike. I am the most lucky woman to have him and his blind eye 🙂 !
Since I realized this I have instead of backing off of being so controlling, started to have to plan more things farther out. Things that aren’t in my control at all and so it has been driving me CRAZY! So the Southern Guy took me and talked me down from my cloud of craziness and after much coercing and prodding in the right direction I am back to my “normal” self. I have come back to the idea of being happy with what you have and what you know, being pleased knowing that you have done all you can to be all you are deep down. There are some things that we have to accept as being out of our hands no matter how hard it is to let go and focus on something more important in the “NOW”, if we don’t and we try to force everything that we want to happen, more likely than not it will force it’s way to not happen, then all that planning is down the tubes.
Someone once told me, “Decide who you want to be, before you figure out what you want to be.” Amazing advice that I have forgotten and I let the “WHO” become a wild mess while I tried to figure out what I wanted to be and where that was going to take me in life. The things that are important now are the things that will determine where I end up and what I end up being/doing.
On that note for the next two weeks I will be focusing on the Northern “farm” girl that I am, allowing myself to indulge in my families goats, the amazing bike rides, and my Northern family.
Speaking of which….
Our prize milker finally had her babies and all five are now three weeks old! Aren’t they adorable?! I love them all so much, but sadly when I come home to visit next at least three of these precious babies will be gone, sold to breeders, or worse sold as weed eaters. Please if you know anyone who is a breeder or looking to start their own herd, let me know on my Contact Page. We would love to see our little bucks sold as breeders, they are pure bred Nubians with a pedigree on both their dam and sire’s side.
Oh I will miss them and the North in general.
I’m curious about what the general public think about my pictures. Please let me know!
My little sister recently moved out and has taken residence in Utah, where she will be working and saving until she starts school in the fall of 2014. Since she was able to land a job interview and needed to be in Utah a month earlier than originally planned, we as a family decided to spend our last weekend together and on Father’s Day we went for a hike on the Rogue River, the Rainie Falls Trail Hike. It’s two miles to the falls following a trail that is maybe two feet wide with one side going up steep rocky cliffs and the other dropping straight into the river, so in short it’s exciting!
At the beginning it doesn’t look like its going to be tough at all, but in a lot of places it is steep climbing on slick rocks and sometimes the trail would get even more narrow that it already was!
It took my family of 5 about 2 1/2 to 3 hours to completely finish the hike, we stopped at the end and took a bit of a break, but over all we didn’t do too bad time wise. It was so much fun and we made great memories together that will last way longer than seeing a movie together or yard work, on top of that it was great exercise for all of us!
And now it’s time for me to brag (cause I’m kinda proud of my photography) I took all these pictures and I edited them all myself! I know they aren’t super professional or anything, but overall I stand by my pictures.
So now that my little sister is in Utah, I myself only have about a month left until I’m packing up and moving out to the South to be with the Southern Guy and start my schooling up again. Wow, it really hasn’t hit me yet, ONE MONTH that’s nothing compared to what I’ve been waiting. I’m so excited to be moving forward with my life and becoming more of a “Big Girl”, taking care of myself, and getting the real life things done the way they should be done. But until I get to do that in a month I will be taking pictures of my home and the surroundings so that when I do get homesick, as I know I will, I can look back and see the beauty that I’ve grown up in and taken for granted the last 22 years.
My lil’ sister Meesh has officially GRADUATED! She made it and I am so proud of her, my little sister-turned personal trainer(only sometimes and not since March) was able to push herself and graduate, something that we were a little worried about since she had some serious health issues her sophomore year putting her behind in her education. Since she has graduated and doesn’t have to worry about possibly getting a G.E.D., she is moving out of our parents home (yes before me, but just by about a month) and moving to…..
While she is heading off to start her life(aka waiting until she is a citizen of the state so she can get in-state tuition), I will be working and saving for the next month and a half for when I will be moving. Yes, finally MOVING! No more counting down the days until I get to see my Southern Guy, no more Skyping with him or being able to just call him and talk for maybe thirty minutes; from there on our we will be able to see each other on a daily basis if we are able to and choose to.
We will have a normal dating life, instead of this seeing each other once every six to seven months, and I will be able to go back to school, and make my own way in the world! Wow that’s a lot of change, but I know it will all be worth it and then some. The Southern Guy will be graduating here in December of 2013 with his bachelor’s and I will be deciding shortly after that where I want to go to college to finish my BA and what I want to finish it in(Dental Hygiene?). Until then it’s back to working my butt off when I don’t twist my ankle increasing my speed and lowing my times, and just overall creating better lifestyle habits for when I am on my own.
Speaking of times here’s my times from two of my runs this week, just my mile runs:
As you can see, my times are going down, the full mile time on the right corresponds to the half mile time on the right, and you may be a little confused then why my 5:31 has an ending time greater than the run before. There’s a simple answer and it is totally legit (yes LEGIT). The run on the day before (the 12:26 ending minute) I pulled my hamstring and so after stretching after the run and before my run the very next day, I didn’t think it would be a problem and as you can see for the first half mile it wasn’t. During the 2nd half of my mile I had to stop for at least 30-60 seconds to stretch because it started hurting again. Lesson learn, when my body tells me my limits I need to listen instead of pushing through it, most of the time. It’s hard sometimes to listen to the messages your body sends you, especially when your dad is a Marine who reminds you that, “Pain is weakness leaving the body,” an awesome inspiring Marine saying, but also one that needs to be understood in context to the situation. So when my muscles hurt because they are doing more work than they are used to v.s. my muscles pulling and over working, I will remember the difference. Also stretching isn’t something to be taken lightly, DO IT. Stretching really does make a HUGE difference, it starts to warm up your muscles so that they are somewhat prepped for your workout, then really warm them up by doing a 5 minute walk or jog, don’t just jump into your exercise, WARM IT UP! Also before you completely cool down, stretch again! It will make all the difference between being sore and stiff and feeling amazing the next day, it also helps with your mentality towards exercising. You won’t associate constant soreness and pain with doing a good workout, but rather will remember the endorphins release during and after your workout making it a more pleasant memory.
So there’s my rant dealing with working out, I know I really should get something more to rant about. Oh and I know I promised some recipes and since my lil’ sisters and I are going to be living so far away and I know how much they love my cooking I will definitely be getting on adding those recipes I promised forever ago and others that my family and I love.
So much is happening, so many changes. This is proof and reason right here why it is so important to keep some sort of a record of the happenings of our lives. I don’t know what all I have forgotten these past two to three weeks, but I know I have forgotten plenty. But for now I think that this was a pretty good summary of the past few weeks and I feel like I’m ready to work on keeping better more accurate record more often.
Just for grins and giggles.
So it’s been a while since I’ve don’t anything on here, I feel like I’ve really fallin’ off the band wagon here, but it’s OK. I just need to push myself harder. These last couple of weeks I’ve really been pushing harder, running for longer, and I’ve started doing some weight exercises. So far I’m still only down 6 lbs, I had thought I had lost another 2 lbs making me so much closer to my 10 lbs goal, but I now no longer trust scales. At least not the one in my bathroom! In the last week or so I started a couch to 5k program and have been going good on that, it’s hard, but so worth it! I feel great, even though I’m so red in the face it looks like I’m sun burnt, I feel like I’ve done something amazing and my only regrets are the days when I don’t do something.
I really need to hunker down these next two months and work on losing at least another 6 lbs to 10 lbs, which means no more sodas, candy, fried food, or fast food of any kind. My workouts are going to be 30 minutes or longer, I’m going to push harder. One goal I met was that I ran two miles straight, granted it was in 30 minutes making my mile a 15 minute mile. I’m going to start doing interval training to decrease my timing down to a 10 minute mile, but I’m not giving up on the distance training as well, I’ve found that by doing both interval training and distance training I will be able to increase my stamina and decrease my times. Hopefully this will also help with my calorie burning.
That’s the dream.
Things are changing for me, new life decisions are coming about and I’m excited for the new experiences heading my way. Now to just get myself to a point where I feel like I’m actually making significant change. I went dress shopping a few days ago (Memorial Day, you know because of all the sales I thought it was the best choice), because I thought I was getting into pretty good shape and slimming down enough that a new dress would be a wonderful reward. While trying on the dresses I was surprised how well they were fitting, but that I still wasn’t looking how well I thought I did. In my mind there was this image of me, but that I was A LOT thinner than I really am. It was reality and my personal reality finally colliding and what I saw in the mirror had two sides; on the one hand I fit into clothes that had been tight at best, on the other hand I’m still far off from my goal and now I completely see it. My eyes have been opened fully and now knowing everything, seeing everything about myself I can fully diagnose what’s going on.
Now I need to focus on not only how long I work out, but how many times a week. I’ve been pushing myself to work out three to four times a week, now I need to push to do four to five times a week for 30 to 45 minutes. Making different choices and keeping my muscles confused so they develop and grow increasing my fat burn. So in two months I will be able to get that dress and possibly need some other clothes because mine will no longer fit!
The last couple of weeks have been hard, getting back into the swing of things and getting my self back to the level I was at about three weeks ago, but I am proud to say I have kept up the push and caused myself to work at the goal. This is something I don’t want to give up on just yet.
Today is Mother’s Day, and I wish that it is a happy one for all those amazing mothers out there. For my younger sister’s present to our mom, she used her artistic skills in photography to take some nice pictures of all of us and they all turned out really great. I have to say even my pictures turned out pretty good, I don’t look half bad, but I definitely didn’t look as good as I had in my mind.
In December I was in my best friend’s wedding as a Bride’s maid and at the time I didn’t really realize how far I had let myself go, and as you can see I’m still not too far from that. So far in about a month and a half I have lost close to 6 lbs, changed my eating habits, and started exercising, but for doing it for a month and a half I would have hoped to have seen a bigger change. I know it’s because my activity level has only increased slightly, not enough to make the “drastic” change I was hoping for. If we want to see a drastic change of more than 3 to 4 lbs a month we need to push harder and be more drastic! AH HAH! I know it’s not that big of an epiphany, but you know what, for me it may be a game changer in my goal!
So instead of focusing on my time for a mile, I’m going to just increase the time that I exercise and the amount that I exercise per week. Also I want to keep track of how many miles in a month I do just for the sake of grins and giggles.
Again I know I’m not going to be super thing and amazingly fit skinny, but for me I will be healthy, I wont worry about the possibility of diabetes, and I will know that my children will live long and healthy lives because of the habits they were raised with. It’s not about fitting into a size 8 for me, its just about being the best I can be and if the end I can get into a size 8 then that’s awesome, but otherwise I will know that I pushed myself and I did my best and my best may be a 12 or 14 or even an 18, but I know that I can do it and that nothing is out of my reach if I only apply myself and push for that goal. So here’s to another 2 and a half months, lets see what can be done.
Wow, I have found my new inspirations! I was doing some research on smart pedometers (the fitbit, because it’s so FREAKING awesome!) and I happened upon this site; Angryjogger. A website by an Irish gentleman who decided one day that he was going to run home due to circumstances out of his control and then made goals based on his first ever running experience. He writes about how he did it, he posted pictures of his former self who wasn’t overly overweight (just like me!), but was definitely in a place he didn’t want to be, he gives a real man’s perspective on how running changed him and how it can definitely change anyone else out there.
“It’s not just about running anymore, it’s become part of my lifestyle to spend weekends away in new places. Besides it’s easier to continue with the running than it is to stop and start all over again. Running tomorrow will always be easier than running some time next week.
Once you build some momentum with it, then it becomes less of a challenge.” ~ The Angry Jogger
And then thanks to the amazing powers of Pinterest and it’s search capabilities, I found What We’re Eating. A wonderful blog about a woman who was overweight and knew it, but couldn’t face the reality of it. One day she decided she was going to change and started the couch to 5K program (Like you know who again!) and something just clicked for her. She realized that this was something she definitely could do, that weight loss is a life decision, not just something you do to, ehem, lose weight for now and it will stay off. She has some really tasty recipes that I am just dying to try, and her story really, really touched me.
“Though I had always said I would never be a jogger, I begrudgingly started the program alongside her. Not gonna lie – in the beginning I didn’t even know if I was going to make it through the entire 60 seconds of jogging. But each week I continued to surprise myself and was able to succeed at increasing the length of the intervals on schedule with the program, though some weeks that meant pushing myself more than others. About half way through, the flip switched in my head. You know what? I can do this. And that’s the thing! It’s all in our freaking heads! When your inner dialogue is filled with “I can’t run for 5 minutes” “I can’t say no to that slice of pizza” “there is no way I’m ever going to shed 100 lbs” “I’m fat, I’m ugly, even I don’t want to look at me, how can anyone else” all of these negative thoughts just constantly circling over and over and over, yeah – you know what? YOU NEVER WILL BE ABLE TO MAKE ANY CHANGES. You have to believe in your ability to do it first.” ~Amanda of What We’re Eating
I offer them and their work for your consideration and hopefully approval. I have just started reading them, but plan on making it a weekly habit if not a daily one. I find them so far inspiring, motivating, very informational, and entertaining, I can’t wait to read more and test out what they have to say.